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no emotion
but the tears are there
waiting for the shock to set in

dead distant stare
looking up to heaven
so why did god take my friend?

in a better place
mysterious ways
preacher you deflect my questions

closing the coffin
pallbearers, thieves
stealing the object of memories

end of an era
put in the ground
time to rethink my perception
polished and buffed to shine
in the vacant house a blade caught my eye
visible peeking under a newdie magazine
a butcher knife revealed winking at me
wooden handle steaked light and dark
a wicked piece of cutlery
bragging of surgery and leaving its mark
yes, the knife talked to me
of a previous owner who watched others bleed
like all things that have tasted of blood
the blade became thirsty and pure as a dove
the man, now dead, was often called Vic
old man Victor was incredibly sic
at first, only pets he vowed to himself
but vows are made for breaking
soon after there were bodies in the cellar
Vic just loved to start with the skin
peeling off patches and disposing of them
patchwork patterns in skin were'nt the worst
he'd pull out the guts to drape on his shoulders
this went on for over two years
until the law the law got wise and realized Vics fears
fried in the bighouse, the knife bagged and filed
until it went missing, somewhere Vic smiled
the knife came home, somehow, some way
but it still needs a hand to go out and play
until i came along, exploring Vics house
and the demand for help echoed under my scalp
i wanted to say no, i truly did
such a pretty knife
only pets, i insisted
when we crossed the threshold
we each found out
that the other was not so special
and we began to realise
that no one belongs on a pedestal
unless it's the shitter
so hard to trust someone
a visit once a week
does not make a relationship
misconception and mistrust
were keys to splitting up
take comfort in what you believe
peace of mind is what you recieve
my god, your god, aliens, the devil
crosses and talismans to ward off evil
a million realities for each point of view
maybe your higher power is inside of you
science, a religion of the strictest kind
all are metaphors to focus the mind
where you go when you die
or from whence you came
look deeper you'll see
they are one and the same
sometimes life gets cluttered with debris
events and beings which cannot be discarded easily
often people can't let go or tell memories to go away
and problems come up that seem to want to stay

wether emotionally or just figuratively speaking
sometimes the lizards aproach works when problems come sneaking
when it appears the lizard is caught and good as eaten
it snaps off its tail and the problem is beaten

not to be morbid but if i were a doctor
self amputation is a solution to be sure
so ready the anasthesia, getting fucked up helps
yes, chop off your problems and save yourself
coming from everywhere in multitudes
coming around to feed on you
the simple ones only want your blood
but some want favors, money or love
every one sick in some way
and you have the cure
the thing that makes them sane
cigarette mosquitos sucking up your smokes
flease cling precariously
wont let go without some money
worst of all are the favor ticks
calling on favors owed
that do not even exist
they think you owe them something
for something that they did
parasites need DDT
their something for nothing asses
need to stay away from me

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fryin' ryan
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United States
My name is Ryan Miller. I like to draw, mess with imagery on the gimp and other digital applications, and I like to write. I have even been paid a small amount for a published piece or short horror fiction entitled Shaman in a collection called When Nightmares Fall. Most of my visual art starts as a pencil or pen drawing and gets finished up eventually on the computer. I like the outdoors but should probably spend more time there. My outdoor hobbies include swimming, nature hikes, and medicinal herb cultivation (not weed, although I smoke plenty), and I would like to start fishing and camping more. I used to hunt a lot but shied away from guns when I became mentally unstable, however I have many archery trophies and may start hunting again with a bow or crossbow. The only thing I've killed with a bow was a squirrel, a hard target to hit, and I have killed three deer, and countless squirrels and rabbits with rifle and shotgun. I like to gig, the art of spearing fish and frogs with a long forked pole from either boat, shore, or wading water, although it's been a few years since I have owned a license to do so (I am below middle class and am on a tighter budged than I used to be), although I grew up in a middle class setting .

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Thank you for the :+fav:s for Spikor and Cthulhu for Charity
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Thanks a lot for the watch :happybounce:
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A late thank you for the favorite. :heart:
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thank you kind sir!
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Thank you kindly for the favorite. :thanks:
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