Dead Fascination

self preservation
instinct pushed aside
an interest, a crutch
a full on crush
come out of hiding
subdued but never dying
a wish, a dream
never yet realized
thinking of death
the new place to hide
from you, yes
you're worth a bullet to the head
or a belly full of pills and a burn
bleeding cuts, to paint my frown red
i wish you a scapel, here, you take a turn
try a little blood magic
however it ends, i promise
i wont think it tragic
go long, go deep
just get it right for me
oh yes, i must sound like a creep
but i've just begun, i havn't crept yet
what if daddy knew, what you've been up to
to have your back like you had mine
to be sent away, suspend free will for a time
think i'll have your back, like once upon a time
like you had mine, knife in hand
pushed me down, when all i wanted was to stand
think it's time now for a little intervention
can't say i'd blame you if you killed me
maybe that's the plan
then after twenty-eight days
you'll do something to be permanently locked away
and i, i'll have my wish, my fascination
my crutch, my crush, a place to hide
my wish, my dream, realized